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~ I said No Turkey for me thanks! ~


‘Merry Christmas Everyone’

Hope you are all enjoying the weekend 🙂

I have not written for a while so thought I would make the most of the time I have today and knock something up!

Christmas…. hmmmmmm… where shall I start with this one?

Are you sitting comfortably?

Yes?

Then I’ll begin 🙂

Do you like my tree? I am sat right next to it at the moment so took this lil picture. I am home alone this afternoon, and quite enjoying the peace and quiet and most of all the remote control is all mine mmuuaaahhhh. Only one problem, there’s shite on the TV.. ggrrrrr.

‘Blogger Time

When I was a little girl I loved our humble Christmas’s at home – my mum, dad, my 2 sisters and brother. We never had much and we were not exactly The Waltons but Christmas was centred around catholicism, the simple things and it was always a special time for all of us. We opened our gifts, and played with those until it was time for dinner. We had food, but it was never about feeding the 5,000!!

But then I met my husband… or should I say my husband and his family…

Every Christmas day we had to go to his parents. There was always so much food. Too much if the truth be known, not sure why as everyone in his family are super slim.

And then there was me!!

In the begining I was questioned at the dinner table about my size, what I ate, have I always been big, did I like eat alot of cream cakes (hate cream cakes!) 😦

After that moment I never really looked forward to any family occassion there. My mother in law always laid the table with all the food so we could help ourselves but when everyone had eaten what was on their plate and there was still food in the serving dishes it was always me that everyone would look at when the much dreaded words came out of her mouth.

‘More Turkey Mitzi’?

‘Brussel sprout? roast potatoe? stuffing? parsnips? trifle? mince pie???? aaaarrrggghhhhhhhh

I get it, yeah the token fat person has to be the sweeper upper.

If ever I said no I didnt want anything ‘no thank you’ it was like the reverse of that scene from Oliver Twist!!

‘Nooooo?? – what do you mean you dont want anymore?’

Nobody else had this fuckin’ pressure!!

4 years ago I decided not to do the extended Family Christmas anymore. Things had progressed. His parents were now divorced but it never ended. Now remarried we were all expected to do Christmas day at his mothers then Christmas Day again at his fathers on Boxing Day! So I have to sit and go through this twice…. god help me :-/ and always the late buffet with white bread rolls filled with butter, thick slabs of cheeses, meats, pork pies, trifles more damn trifles, cakes, vol- ou- fuking vaints, sausage rolls and the rest… and chocolates… Eat Mitzi Eat Mitzi Eat Eat Eat…I love chocolate but how can one enjoy it when ones already eaten so fucking much!!

(huge sigh..)

Time for Change’

Now I spend more time with my sister and brother over the festivities. They are both younger and both single and would normally spend time with their friends. Some years we go traditional, others we have what we fancie, we just chill, talk, drink, laugh and spend quality time together.

As the eldest I feel I have neglected them at this time of year to keep my extended family happy..

It never goes down very well year in year out, but I am happier this way. Last year I was 3 months post op and didnt need the drama as I was vomitting at every move I made. This year me and my siblings went out for our Christmas Dinner on the evening of the 19th December. I brought my kids along with me and we had a fantastic night. I actually ordered 3 course, paced myself and enjoyed it. I hope this slide show works. I shared the wings, had a quarter of my main meal and ate alllll the desert with no ill effects (still got my sweet tooth) and had a few sips of the non alchoholic cocktail which was yummy.

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Oooops think thats enough rambling, I’m headed to the kitchen to rustle myself up something to eat.

Hope your all enjoying yourselves and have eaten your protein and not had too many carbs today, and oh

PS: Dont forget ya vitamins. 🙂

Mitzi x x

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Emotional Abuse in a marriage!


So this happens every time I am going away. I am going away on business with work from tomorrow morning until Friday.
He has known about this since June of this year when I received confirmation.

He confirmed he was off work 2 months ago, it is also on the calendar in the kitchen. I do the same conference every year, same time of year, its been an annual event for the last 6 years.

Tonight after dinner I reminded him I was away just to raise the conversation.

Since when??
Who you going there with???
Why are you going???
Where are you staying???

He asks the same questions to catch me out!

Then he starts be-littling my job role and generally continued to be negative about the whole point of the trip!!

I got up and left the room…..

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